Sunday, 2 June 2013

Claim it!

I used to cringe at cat calls
They made me feel dirty
I was a girl in a woman's body
No name, just thighs and breast
I hated that
Looks of lust from men old enough to be my dad
How do I get over that
My body is that of a woman
I can't stand it
Why is this happening to me
I'm not ready yet
How can I bury it
Comfort in the bottom of a bag of chips
And everything good that passes through my lips
I'll build up a layer of protection
Layer upon layer
Year after year
Maybe I'll disappear
This is easy
Nobody sees me
I'm invisible
It worked

I have managed to bury myself
in layers of flesh
I have created a mess
Ready for a change
No longer afraid of being a woman
And ALL it entails
I am focused
I have a vision
The body that I have managed to bury
Is ready to be exhumed
No more hiding
No more shame
It's mine and I'm staking my claim
I saw it yesterday and it still bears my name
It's not too late
I can get it back
Here's my plan of attack
Be aware of what I'm eating
and what's eating me
I'm an emotional eater
if you know what I mean
Replace lounging with activity
Focus on my dreams
Stay off the sidelines and participate
Feeling good and looking great
Motivated by the body I buried yesterday
I saw it and it still bears my name
I am ready to do the work this all entails
No giving up
No time to fail
I owe it to me